When I got home from work today, dad told me grandpa got the results from his latest bone marrow test. As of today he now officially has full blown leukemia. They are taking him up to Portland tomorrow to start a more aggressive chemo therapy.

In light of this recent development I have charged myself with the task of making a hundred paper crane for him.

For those unfamiliar with the story of Sadako and the thousand paper cranes, Sadako was a girl who was 2 when the bomb was dropped on Hiroshima. Later on in life she developed leukemia. In Japanese legend if you fold a thousand paper cranes your wish will come true. So Sadako started to fold her thousand paper cranes. She almost reached 800 before she died. There is a memorial in Hiroshima for Sadako and people fold paper cranes and drape them over it.

Since my grandpa has the same disease as Sadako I feel it's only right to do this for him, to let him know I love him with all of my heart. If any of you want to fold cranes and send them to me . Myself and my grandpa (Jack Watkins) would be most grateful I can assure you.

If you don't know how here is a helpful site to get you started. If you want to send me some please get ahold of me so I can tell you where to send them.

http://www.sadako.org/How%20to%20Fold%20Crane%20from%20Operation%20Peace%20Crane.htm

For you locals of the burg Michael's has beautiful origami paper in the back 40-48 sheet s for a lil over 4 dollars, that's what I'm using.

I've yet to see these on the net. Any there are just too pretty not to share!. So I decided to share the love and go into work today and scan these and upload them for all you Gackt fans out there. 20 pictures of nothing but Gackuto!!!! Enjoy! Also the b&w photos are suppose to be grainy.

I decided to update since I like...never do. I also stopped being lazy and changed the batteries in my camera so I can show off me pretty pretty boy betta. His name is Gackuto or Gackt and pronounced Gac-t not Gack.

Jes recently got a Betta and named him Miyavi and that reminded me of my betta a few years back named Epyon...yes I named him after a gundam, he was purple and pretty and I loved him. And I missed having a pet of my own and I wasn't about to get birds again.

So a fishy it was I decided. Went to the pet shop and after informing a very unconvinced owner that in fact the vase bettas he was trying to smell me where inhumane to them I bought the only blue betta they had along with a 1 gal fishy bowl n' supples. Total cost was like 38 bucks, not bad in my mind.

Got him home and then read up hardcore about the care of em and found out the fishy bowl is all right but not the best for them. Plus it didn't have a light and against black gravel he was kinda hard to see. So on friday after reading up on various tanks n' stuff I bought a tank at freddies. 54 bucks but hey it's got a light a filter and it's 3 gallons. So after fighting with him to get him into the transfer cup he's now in his new home and looks much happier.

Granted when he first got in there I think he was pissed and kept darting back and forth and flaring. He's alot more active and I think that's because the temp in this tank is warmer then in the bowl. In the bowl it was on the low end but in this tank the light helps warm the water.

Also discovered he's horny and very good at making bubble nests. Which is good, because that means he's healthy. Which reminds me of the mild freak out I had the day  got him. I was reading up on fin rot and somehow misread that white tips on the fin was a symptom of it. Which isn't the case. It's black tips with holes in them. White tips is a sign of regrowth and actually a good thing.

So anyhoo he's happy, somewhat passive agressive (the anti-fighting fish if you will) and my boy. I so discovered he's a crowntail betta which is a fairly new sub species of betta created only in 97.  There are three variations on the crowntail and if I'm correct he's the two prong type which is this one    which is almost a dead ringer for him cept he has what's called "red wash" at the base of his fins which is a result of breeding and in blues hard to get rid off.

And now pics of meh baby

    
Yes out of focus but he's flaring, you can kind of make out the red wash in this pic too.

Crap man...I haven't posted in like...ever. Been busy with shit like work and life in general. So What has happened with my life since my last post well lets see...

1. Got my new comp (huzzah!)

2. Got a guitar (huzzah again though I can't play jack on it yet)

3. Working 5 to 6 days a week (go me though I'm severely under paid, quite literally, but it's all good)

4. We had to let one of our girls go. (Thus why I'm working 6 days at the first and last week of each month)

5. I discovered having sushi for lunch and KFC for dinner will in fact make you puke.

6.Grandpa went to the hospital on Friday.

7. Grandpa came home from the hospital yesterday but isn't cooperating and thus is getting sick again.

Well I think that's it for now. I'm not in the mood to write anymore...

I didn't post this yesterday, because I thought dad had stolen my camera, which was not the case and I'm just a retard and it was buried under paper -_-'. Anyhoo here is a pic of my pretty pretty professional framed Haido oh he's so so pretty. The text reads : Another oneself who has the face of demon he finally revived. Not...quite sure what that means. I think that's a Jes question.



Another thing today is Eric and I ordered my computer parts. Joy 794 dollars later. But it'll kick ass. I so happy!

So Jesi babe here are your choices for your cellphone cover designs. I can do different fonts on the back or just have the heart on the back. But we can discuss that over IM. The price is gonna be $$18.00 plus $3.00 shipping so $21.00 all together.

1. 2. 3. 4.
5. 6.



Back

1. 2. 

What a fucking week man...omg...

It's a week like this that makes me wonder, "Why the hell did I want to become a graphic designer?"

Finally got the Neon Moon Menus done! Thank you fucking Jesus! Had to do a total overhaul on a business card for a hair stylist twice.

Had a guy who thinks he knows a thing or two about Japanese culture come in and have us (well me) try to design him a card for his sword smith shop where he makes katanas and various other japanese style swords. So at first I was like YES SCORE!

The design he was talking about, I really wasn't going for. He wanted a picture of a blade with the hamon line very obvious. The hamon line is where the blade gets lighter on the edge. And he wanted the name of his forge which is Yakiba Forge to curve with the blade. He also wanted the kanji for Yakiba Forge and his "show name" which is Shodo or "Bright Path" on the card as well.

I go home and I figure out the katakana not the kanji for the text since there are over 10,000 different kanji symbols and I do NOT have the time to find the right ones. So I do my best checking with my dictionary n' all that. I do a line art of the blade and match it with the text. Yeah it's okay, it looks a little cheap and hokie. So I pull out the stops and do my own thing, thinking he'll totally go for them. I find some really cool pictures of a samurai with katana n' stuff and design some kick ass cards (not being vain here they kick)

I'm all pumped totally thinking he'll go for it. Comes in and right out of the gates rejects ALL of my designs EXCEPT for the shit ones. He absolutely does not want a picture of a person on there at all. Bashes my katakana saying he wants kanji and that what kanji was on there was wrong....which it wasn't I rechecked. So I have fine and take the picture of a blade he gives me and try again doing a lineart of the blade. So he and his "wife/girlfriend/fuck buddy" i dunno comes in and he still doesn't like. NOW saying he wants a photo of the blade *headdesk* so I very politely say that they aren't on the same page and his vision and mine just aren't keeping up. And the woman gives me this look like I'm full of shit and this should be a piece of cake what they are asking for. And yeah it could be if I wanted to do a shit job on it. But he was more understanding and thanked us for our time, but by the end of today I was sick of the whole thing. I put at least 9 hours of work into all of this and I got jackshit for it. Well...a got a dollar since the woman bought cd cases from us which Leslie gave me. Yay a dollar for nine hours work. What does that figure out per hour? It can't be much.... oh the fuck well at least that's done and over with.

I've also been stressing over health insurance and getting that figured out. I've also develop a lovely lump on my eyelid which has me mildly panicking wondering exactly what it is. I'm praying for a clogged oil gland and not something like...cancer.

On a high note I went to Jarvis Custom Frames and I will be having my pretty pretty poster of Hyde professionally framed. I also talked with Mr. Jarvis for like an....hour. I think I told him far too much about my personal life, but he was a great guy. He seemed totally interested in Hyde (even if he thought he looked like a girl ^_^) I might burn him my favs of Hyde and give it to him as a gift for giving my a little discount and listening to me unload off on him about that client and his damned "vision" for his card. He totally sympathized with me though so that was awesome. So yeah on tuesday I will have my pretty Haido back!! He said I was a pleasure to talk to, and that I wasn't a hassle when it came to picking out a matte and my choice was good. I didn't go for a traditional "cop-out" white I went with a color matte that matches some of the color in the picture. So yay that was the one good thing today. Oh plus Ron playing his japanese learning tapes and he an I confusing Leslie buy saying random stuff in various languages.


Just so show you why I'm SO mad here on the top three cards I busted my ass on. I lined out his name and address out of respect. And the black border is to show where the cuts would be.


  My favorite and one Leslie tried to sell him on for a good three minutes it seemed.


And now for the ones he liked best and the second verson I came up with.

   

In the spirit of being an utter copycat at times here my 100 random things about me inspired by roy56. Enjoy my random crap


1. I am hardcore addicted to caffeine. I actually get scared if it's late in the day and I haven't got any.
2. Was born almost a month premature. Suppose to be on 27th but I decided I wanted out on the 3rd.
3. Though I work at a video store and my parents own it, I actually don't really enjoy watching movies that much.
4. After watching Beetlejuice and having the shit scared out of me I was randomly afraid to reach into the cabinets under my mom and dad's sink, fearing the the bettlejuice snake would get me. Not the sandworm the snake thing with his head. (Don't ask, I dunno either)
5. I own well over two hundred beanie babies, including some very rare ones. And I know almost all of the names. (This is not an invitation to steal them...mine...back off)
6. I have a scar on the top of my head where a garden hoe hit me.
7. I have a scar on the underside of my left leg where I cut myself on the bare frame of a car.
8. I have shit for lungs because of having phenomena around 6 or 7 times. However I can hold notes for a pretty long time. I just breathe shallow.
9. I do not travel well. I generally end up being sick (as Cora and Michele) thus I just don't like it.
10. As I've gotten older I'm getting more moles. God help me when I'm 50.
11. I more then likely have mild earing loss from sitting next to the drum set and in front of the guitar amp in pep band for 4 years.
12. The only parts of my body I like are my hands and legs from the knees down, what i consider the only "normal" parts of me.
13. I love shoe shopping but HATE clothes shopping with a passion.
14. I tend to only cry during animated movies (Lion King, Land before Time, Galaxy Express 999)
15. I am a wound inhibitor, which is a form of self-mutilation, thus the scars on my arms. I have no idea why I do it.
16. I can't pick my thumbs with the index finger of the same hand. Something about it turns my stomach.
17. I still sleep with my closet light on. Not out of fear of the dark, but I can't sleep good in total darkness.
18. Even when I'm alone in the house I still have to sleep with my door closed. The other noises in the house bug me.
19. I can't stand people who eat loud and smack their food or open their mouths when they chew. We're humans people not cows, close your trap.
20. My mother's coughing bouts annoy me to no end. Only my mom's.
21. I've always wanted to learn Japanese, yet Spanish comes the easiest to me.
22. I tend to go for guys that look like girls...
23. I can learn songs from an album just by listening to it in the background. Case in point I managed to learn all five of the Gackt albums I have in about a week and a half...go me!
24. I can still recite Notes from Phantom of the Opera doing all of the parts. Ask Lacey I did it for her one day at work.
25. I have a mask fetish. It started with Zechs Marquise from Gundam Wing and continued with Phantom.
26. I want to write a book, but I really don't read all that much.
27. I tend to fall for the bad guys. Or the one that redeems himself only to die.
28. I like foreign music more so then American. Gackt, Hyde, Rammstein, HIM, Carpark North, Pendulum etc
29. Am a total Youtube addict.
30. I love rping more then I probably should, and I get anxious if I don't get to post when I want to.
31. I can do a really good Indian (from India) accent, but it's a male voice...go fig.
32. Love turn-base rpgs (Final Fantasy) but I have yet to beat one.
33. Ended up teaching my computer aps 3&4 class in high school because I knew more then my teacher.
34. I crank up my music in my car for the sole reason of annoying people and getting them to look at me. (Japanese music blaring out of a blue car, I'd stare)
35. I have no patience for ignorance. I paid attention in school, why didn't you?
36. I had cobalt blue eyes till i was 3. Dammit I want them back!
37. I never want to be categorized as "general" or "normal"
38. When people pronounce my name right on the first try, it really makes me happy.
39. I hate having my name mispronounced by I like my spelling of it better then the normal one.
40. I use to draw all the time, but have since then lost what skill I had.
41. I have a hard time looking people in the eye when talking to them. So if I'm looking off in another direction or looking down I'm not being rude I'm just more comfortable that way.
42. Have a bad habit of totally spacing off while driving and go into this autopilot mode.
43. My depth perception sucks ass. "Objects in brain appear closer then they really are"
44. Have had dreams that actually hurt. Both involving me having a lip ring.
45. In my dreams I tend to not be in them. And "I" tend to be a man.
46. I was deathly afraid of learning to drive and didn't even get my permit till I was 16
47. Have a mild fear of dogs. I don't like them barking or growling when I'm approaching a house and when I'm in them coming up and having to smell and lick. I always feel like they are going to bite me. The only dogs I have ever liked was Tink and Butch both are sadly dead.
48. I have been felt up by a dog. Butch liked to lay with me and put his paw on my boob.
49. I have had another woman pinch my ass. She thought I was someone else.
50. When I get a new pen, I have to dismantle it and then put it back together. It's a total compulsive habit.
51. I have moderate carpel tunnel in both hands. Which means playing the piano or guitar would be hard, but I so want to learn to play them.
52. I got through radical changes in men I like.
53. The "My Pictures" folder on my computer is a great timeline of all of my obsessions. It's rather amusing.
54. I love singing in foreign languages more then English, especially Japanese.
55. Love listening to someone speaking Japanese, something about it I love. Especically Gackt's voice...mmm.....smexy.



56. Have an addiction to Ruby Red Squirt aka "Liquid Crack"
57. On my right hand I can touch my index finger and pinky finger together. I have yet to find another person that can do it without using their other hand to do it. (Go on, try it)
58. Am not afraid to rock out hardcore in my car while driving and I don't care what I look like singing along.
59. I was born during the Young and the Restless and for some reason I loathe that and all soap operas.
60. I have a fear of math. I refuse to take anymore math and when asked to figure something out even if it's simple I get nervous and my brain just stops functioning.
61. I learned to thrill my "r's" by listening to Rammstein. Thanks Till!
62. Am a total and utter cat person. I will always have a cat with me for as long as I live.
63. Smokey Joe is my baby boy and I must love on him at least once a day.
64. When I sing, I try to mimic the singer. So with foreigners singing English I take on their accent. It's a habit I'll never be able to break. If anyone wants a laugh ask me to sing Evergreen for you. I think I have Hyde's accent down pat.
65. The dentist thinks I'm a laugh riot...I'm just me
66. Because of having my wisdom teeth pulled I know loathe yogurt.
67. I consider pie or green tea ice cream by themselves a meal
68. I prefer to bake rather than cook, even though people say baking is harder.
69. I have had a ringing in my ears since around 6th grade
70. My parents don't, nor will ever know I do pin-up art. (No not me posing. My 3d models...perv)
71. I secretly want a BJD (ball-jointed doll) but lack the 500 dollars for one.
72. Probably the only person in my family that can't drive stick well. (I fail)
73. Totally have a think for men in thigh-high boots or big heeled shoes.
74. I can only wear converse or shoes without a sole. Shoes with a sole hurt my feet.
75. I have a birthmark on my knee that I swear looks like the profile of a Dr. Seuss character.
76. People think I look Greek or Indian. I am Indian, just the Native American kind.
77. One of my major annoyances in the sound of people biting their nails and that little muffled "pop." It makes me want to hit them.
78. I get really uncomfortable when people comment on how pretty or "beautiful" I look.
79. I really hate it when people use God as a fall back for something they can't explain. "God moves in mysterious way" "It was the Lord's will" etc etc.
80. If I had to pick a god to worship it would hands down be Ganesh. I heart my fat elephant headed god.
81. I have an extreme fear of bees. Meaning I see a bee, I run away.
82. Felt a ghost in my aunt's house down in California
83. I associate Lava soap with my grandparents house, and love the smell of it.
84. Had the biggest crush on the green ranger when Power Rangers first came out.
85. I remember the first rated R movie I got to watch. Judge Dredd
86. I still have the ticket to the showing of Jurassic Park we went to go see.
87. No one thought Gerard Butler was hot till 300 came out. Who's laughing now bitches!
88. I have watched every movie Gerry has been in that we have at the store. Out of the 7 we have he's died in 4 of those.
89. Cannot watch Phantom of the Opera without the stereo blaring organ music.
90. Have a raised k-9 tooth I call my fang. I can make it poke out over my lip like I'm a retarded vampire.
91. Cake and ice cream together is disgusting to me.
92. I have a soggy bread quirk. If the bread is soggy I can't eat it. Except for a French Dip.
93. I despise cheeseburgers.
94. Believe truly that Satan lives in Kraft singles and that they are evil.
95. Am a firm believer in reincarnation. Smokey was a drag queen in a former life I swear
96. I find graveyards to be extremely beautiful places and the thought of dead people being buried there doesn't bother me a bit.
97. Love the quiet when it's snowing
98. Forever fascinated by cherry blossoms and watching them fall.
99. Like horror movies, but don't like jumping, which I do quite easily.
100. I think of scenes in my stories to help me fall asleep.

There more things you wanted or needed to know about me.

As a whole, day was a pretty nice day. Got up and went down to Leslie's to get the cd for Austin's service made up. We had minor issues but they eventually got it fixed. A tiny tiny bit of the "y" on Story is cut off, but oh the hell well.

After that I went to the burg and proceeded to blow oh about 190ish bucks on clothing. around a 170 of that was what I got paid by Leslie so yay.

Got "workish" clothes so I look nice down at Leslie's stead of the 20 year old I really am. One kimono dress (very pretty) a pair of black capris, black docker slacks, bamboo black flip flops (because I can). Then went to Maurice's and got another pair of jeans. Along with two over shirts and two tanks to mix and match. One of the over shirt is...can you believe it...PINK. Yes me...I bought something pink. Well salmon pink, but still omg pink to me. Also some earring and earring necklace pair. Also got sucked into applying for one of their cards. So yay credit.

After that went to the Julius and snagged me a strawberry sensation since I'm been like craving one for ever.

Since the whole week has been so nice I've been driving with the windows down, so of course this means Sutherlin and Roseburg have been subjected to very loud Japanese music. and today was no different. I had The Cape of Storm blaring from my car as I was pulling out of the mall, yeah got a few looks. 

I was gonna take the freeway, but I decided. "Hey it's nice out, lets take the long way home." so I went for a cruise on the old highway. Cruise along at about 50, let my thoughts wonder, it was a really good feeling just to enjoy driving and the nice day. I find that ever since last Sunday I've been really appreciating these little things in life.

While driving I came to the answer to why Austin's passing has had such an effect on me. He's the first person I've known to die that was younger then me, or close to my age. Well granted Billy Parnell died this summer, but he wasn't my friend just a class mate, that I really didn't like.

But Austin is the first young death I've had to deal with. Those younger then you aren't suppose to die. It's really made me think, really brought things in perspective. I really don't get emotionally worked up about it, but just makes me sit down and think about life and all of the little joys.

So I suppose I can thank  Austin for showing me a new way to look at life.

Thanks buddy, love you...

EDIT: PS My Gackt/Hyde mood theme is finally done, woot!

Very proud of this. Please enjoy.